|"How Alcoholics Anonymous Failed Me: |
My Personal Journey to Sobriety Through Self-Empowerment"
by Marianne W. Gilliam
Even after I had long-since discovered the lacking within
the program of AA, I still had all the requisite Catholic
school boy worries of speaking out against it. I also had
been so completely buffaloed by a few particular folks and
a then-believed need for companionship that I wasn't
even capable of articulating why I felt a lot of the discomfort
and anxiety with the group's practices.
When I found Marianne's book, it was when I was struggling
to decide what to do; I felt so alone and yet I was diametrically
opposed to AA's beliefs and practices. This book helped me
to better articulate the reasonable apprehensions regarding the
group, as well as make a decision for my own welfare.
Marianne's book is tremendous not only because she
expertly delineates why the organization's approach is flawed
(and the negative impact it has,) but because she also does so
without a fiery, rhetorical splash that could be easily dismissed
as bitterness (even though the book's suggestive title deceptively
doesn't reflect that!) Of course, for AA apologists, anything that
doesn't sing the praises and promote the agenda is an 'evil lie.'
She's moderate and good natured and works out how her
journey took her elsewhere, and how her health, happiness,
spirituality, and sobriety did not need to be tied up in the 12 Step
model to be achieved or maintained.
Fascinating stuff, whether you are yourself in recovery, faced
addiction in the past, have a loved one suffering from it, or have
lost someone to the cult of AA. Or perhaps you have had
questions and concerns about the group simmering for some time,
afraid to voice them and view the dirt under the carpet.